Crazy Ramblings on a Wednesday…
I’m just sitting hear listenting to a little Joni Mitchell – Circle Game to be exact…
I don’t know why today is the day that I am missing my brother…nothing is going on. The atmosphere at work is a little cloudy…I’m feeling moody…and Pete is in Chicago (admitidly driving back today, but still not here). It’s just one of those great down days.
Wish it was anything but. I can only handle sad and down once in a while….today is not one of those days. Trying to focus on the positive…but having a hard time with that today. I should have ovulated either yesterday or today, but what does that help – Pete aint here to hit the little bugger…so probably not going to get pg this month…Just getting tired of all this shit! It’s so silly. Wondering when my body will work (I know, when it’s supposed to)…getting sick of people who have no clue what this feels like trying to help…And tired of not being knocked up! Grr! I mean seriously, put Tab B into Slot A, move around a bit, and Wham, it should be happening. Well we’ve followed all the steps and all the directions and had quite a bit of Wham’s and still no baby growing. I held off on Sex because of the possiblities of pregnancy – Man, should have had a TON of sex – that would have mad me get pregnant! Sheesh!
Good news is that I’ve been catching up with some old friends. Some are welcome additions to my life, some I’m still feeling out whether I really want them having access to my life. Facebook and MySpace are nice in small doses and in small degree’s, but sometimes I don’t like people having access to that information…Yet, I am content to pour my thoughts out into cyberspace fo the world to read….Conundrum anyone?
Oh well, I supposed I should go back to pretending to work, and ignoring most of those that I work with because they are on my nerves right now…but not really wanting to. Online Backgammon anyone? Actually I am extremely bored right now. So bored to the point that my brain feels like it went to sleep about an hour ago. Any one want to meet me tonight for shots? I’ll pour the vodka, you bring the trashcan!
